today was the day of reckoning....it's the release-of-the-promo-results day.

maybe for other jcs, this may not be as big an issue as in yjc...because apparently we're notorious for retaining people. but notroisity do come at a price....

some can call retaining a second chance. some can call retaining humiliating and have suffered greatly from it.

but afterall, retaining isn't always about you.

Let's say you are one of the people who promoted, then would you then be happy? Yes, for such a small amount of time with the C.T, but after that? when yuo see yuor friends faces frowning, tearing, and frustrated, suddenly, yuor results don't really matter anymore. any private celebration can wait.

Let's say you are one of those who can advance because you miss the mark by just a little... do you feel justified? somehow that promotion doesn't seem to fit quite well...what else can you do but to accept reality?

Let's say you are one of those who have provisional advancement, then would you heave a sigh of relief? for a moment yes, then later the reality of another block test makes you sick. like a another-exam-to-clear kinda sickness in the gut, either make or break kinda reality dawns upon you. but for a few, maybe they would rather be given a second chance then have no chance at all.

Let's say you are one of those who retain. just a few more marks to provisional advancement. you've done so well for the other subject, but it seems that yuor strengths are not lying in the areas you wish they would and retain as a result of that. you want to appeal no matter what. you want to go up with the others. but your teacher advises you to stay back in jc1, because you'll suffer if you move up.

So much thoughts that can run through...so much things to consider.

I'm not a person accustomed to sweet words...not really anyway. but sometimes in that narrow time-frame, we just all need a little comfort. reality can come later

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mixed emotions are everywhere....for those who promote, feel duty-bound to comfort those who are less. for those who are advanced simply cannot and don't have the mood to do anything because one does not feel too good themselves.

but at that time of knowing your results, would it be better if you start making plans? so as to distract yuorself from the sad truth in front of you? i don't know, it works for me, but maybe not for all people.

like today, i almost feel guilty for promoting, because it's like a feeling of leaving your friends behind, although grace told me not to think that way because that's not how she feels, still.....it's hard to leave anyone you care about behind.

like what phyllis said, just be there for them silently....no words are really needed....

i guess, life really has it's ups and downs. sometimes, you're not even sure where you are....neither up nor down. but evetually, we all hope to see light from where we're standing from...

strange isn't it? promos seem more important than o level....haha maybe because we put in more in promos than o's....

for those who are disheartened....don't be...instead, after feeling sad and all? it's time to move on, sometimes, that's the best way to get away from the pain and disappointment.one of the ways we can really reach out is by offering assistance-whatever it takes to make you pick up again> afterall, that's what friends are for. no matter how you are, where you are....WHAT you've become...sometimes, when you need help, we'll always be here.

don't feel alone, because even those who do not speak, are with you in heart as well......:D