Life Expectancy: 65 Years
Claud
An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.
She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.
For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,
in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Opening up
Opening up
Hahaha....i doubt anyone has the time to read blogs these days. really, all the mugging has done something weird to my brain.
anyway, before anything starts, i just wanna say that if i sound pretty tired, or i happen to sound quite irritated, or sometimes i look very blur - bear with me. these are the signs of stress....hahaha but really....just ignore, i'll do the same for you :D
oh mah, promos leh. it's only promotional examinations and we're so tight-assed about it. i mean to look at it from afar and from another point of view. we've got only a school paper which isn't foreign to us. but yet, the word RETIAN drives everyone crazy......hahahaha, really, even mr ong says "don't waste your time"....somehow i feel that it's true
haiz, just feeling pretty down lately, maybe it's because from last time....still haven't fully recovered yet? still so many questions, so little answers. but if we don't move on, i guess we'll have to suffer in the end bah.
haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz~
there are somethings bugging me. am i that sensitive to actually care? it's only shopping mah~no need ppl to come with me one what....then yet again, it's kinda sad if you go shopping alone. lolz, maybe i'm overly sensitive and touchy these days because of revision and everything.
so on my way home while fighting the Z-monster i thought through what huishan said today. it kinda irked me by what she say..."you're self-centered, a narcissist, Zi wo zhong xin"...then for a moment there's nothing i can say to that.
somewhere in our hearts, perhaps we want people to tell us about our MAJOR flaws yet many times we're afraid to face up to them. and not many people are as brave as some like huishan to tell it in your face.
yes, i admit....a narcissist? self-centered - definitely.
pardon me for using the world 'i" - i am a self-centered person trying to be self-less it's not easy to change you know. it really is an never-ending process. maybe i'm not trying hard enough. maybe there's still something worth holding on to. but nevertheless, it's a painful and trying experience.
alot of times, it's not good to be able to see through everyone. really~ it's scary, and it's painful.
wouldn't it be good to live in denial sometimes? but it doesn't work that way - at least to me.
so life will always be an 5 and 6 down journey.
it's only a matter whether you can pick yourself from the ditch and carry on fighting in the fields.
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