After 2 weeks or relaxing, with virtually no hmwk to do and no tests coming up - the air tasted like heaven. finally, we can slow down the pace and walk at 5km/hr instead of 10km/hr and finally go to the places we want to go so badly. Watch the movies we want to watch.....buy the things we want to buy.

BUT

every good thing must come to an end.

for example, the end for me is - now

yes.....now

this week is chinese A'levels and to speak the truth, i don't seem to have any fits about it. not as bad as promos i think.

or maybe we're so used to exams already.

today had band meeting and ms luo kindly brought us along the journey to the IMMENSE schedule she had printed out.

it's like a buffet you know, but in this buffet, you have to eat everything. the good news is, you're going to enjoy it with the people you like. so there's not much complains from me, i simply look forward to the planning process and having fun running around to see that it works. yes, i'm abit off my mind but really, that's one thing i enjoy - hard work.

now~ it seems that the lazy me was so far behind. in one way or another, i've said goodbye to the slacking times, and moved forward to the endless days of hard work.

you know what's the best thing about hard work? is that it pays off.....now at least i understand why workaholics work the way they do.

conversely speaking, the worst thing about hard work is that it doesn't pays off.

but frankly, it does pay off one way of another. maybe you anticipated the end to be too near - or had overlooked your successes.

seriously - nat, krist, jialiang and ismail have all signed up for the senoko weather project. it sounds really fun and tiring at the same time. tiring because the idea of going through P.w AGAIN, (minus the evaluation of materials and I&R) and the thought of working through the W.R with the group will really hike up some tensions. hope we avoid that....maybe we all have to learn

but the pay-off is tremendous. i mean seriously, putting the monetary incentive aside. the idea of gaining knowledge really makes my blood sugar level sky-rocket. plunging information but scraping the examination part is simply a greater chance of excelling in the ways only the others can dream.

have you dreamt of studying without examinations?

this is our chance you know.

to excel in other niche areas, such as krist and her ppt slides, nat and her merticulous ways, jialiang and his really really lame jokes and ismail's with his fervious attitude.

me?

well....maybe i don't really have anything to provide except to nag? hahahaha.......maybe i'm not used to working with people who are better in areas where i'm weak in.

like seriously, i'm careless, and not that computer savvy....my jokes hardly work unless they are sarcastic...and maybe i'm losing that sense of urgency.

lolz....i get the feeling i'm putting myself down too much.

okay, maybe there is something about me which may be valuable....i'll start making myself work....but first, i'll have to figure out where i'm good at.

so....coming back into reality.

the events lined up for next year....there's only an expression i can give - *phew*

really, thinking about it makes my mind buzz with confusion and there are many gaps in my mind about the future stuff i'm taking on.

band has just started making plans for our Xmas concert, Annual Concert and SYF.

and the weather project has to come up with a proposal....and then there's this uncertainty if i should take H3?(if i qualify in the first place) and of course there is OCIP post CIP we have to do.....and to come back and help the next batch in OCIP. and there's sports day which we may need to organise?

see what i mean? *phew*

not to mention the BIGGEST uncertainty of all which is whether i'll be promoted in the first place.

and

if i get promoted....will do have the energy to go through the academics next year?

maybe i'm working hard for my dream scholarship.

maybe i'm working all this in vain - maybe other students in their various JCs have done more than me.

*push push push*

it's not a time to be lazy i guess....and the first step starts this week....

hell- i don't even know i'll score well for A's anot.

hell- i don't even know if we'll make if for SYF

hell- i don't even know if we'll win the weather competition

hell- i don't even know what will H3 be like

hell- i don't even know i'l break down.

but most importantly, after all the hardwork i've put in....no, after all the hardwork WE've put in, the pay-0ff had better be good.