Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

if case you can't see the title it's called my darline...haha

okay okay, wrote a new script today, and according to my darlin~ band president, i can't act my own script....voice doesn't suit. perhaps i'm too high a pitch for that kinda script. haiz, have to rewrite one soon....the content is too explicit

so i went over to my aunt with my grandma to study. yeah, i finished ionic equilibium notes and finished up geog. then i went to study reader's digest on the July and August issue. learn't alot of GP if you'ld call it that way..haha making an excuse on slacking off my afternoon. but anyway, i read "THE EXAM SECRET" yah...been reading it for years doesn't seem to work, but some of the techniques helped me study better though, thanks barbara brown~!

oh yah....my grandma blatantly told me that i was fat and should eat more pineapple...she said it so blatantly that i didn't take any offence...hahaha, instead i stared at her and wondered how great my grandma was...oh yah, did i mention she cooks like the best sesame oil chicken in the world?

putting food aside, let's discuss about weight. this has been on my mind every since, well, forever? haha, initially i wanted to lose weight to look pretty and so that guys would notice me as a girl and not some sort of a trans..yes, trust me, i get that "you girl meh?" thing from guys alot of times.

then i watched oprah (oh yah, she rocks btw) and she mentioned about her weight issue. she used to weigh alot and then felt that if people had to like her, they had to like her weight too. until she met some psychologist and realized that it is not the fat that is making her sad, it's the other issues underneath that we're using our fat to cover. some people are less-blessed with lower metabolism rates. aha...thus the fat keeps on piling. when i eat, it's when i'm stressed....

see what i mean? it's because of the insecurities in homework and friends that is why i eat. not because i like to, not because i love food (like hell i do, but that's not the point)....

so as she mentioned, some people can be addicted to porn, addicted to drugs...addicted to sex, so why is it a fuss that people cannot be addicted to food? Is it there is no chemical to "hook" your brain to eating. have you been reading recently that eating makes people happy?

whatever the reason you're eating for, please please remember....it's your body and you've got only one body. and please let the death of Steve Irwin remind you that life is as precious as it is.