Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

i remember the time when i asked someone, "why don't you redo pw since you got band 3" and their answer was a look to ask me, "are you serious?"

now i fully understand why....pw, as guanyu would have put it, kills. there is no other way to put it. today krist, ritesh and xinyi were at my house doing the written report draft...oh man, it was hell and high water la. everything is falling into place nicely, but the effort of putting it in words, oh man, must really take my hats off kirst. she can sit down there and type leh.....unlike me, hahaha....i only used my eye power la. *guilty*

anyway, today krist and xinyi so cute la, they came into the room and started to go WAH....on my books...haha, oh man so touched :D

so while doing pw, i was listening to the recording of the interview. and found out that i sounded so qian bian (owe beating). like my voice really damn man la...hahaha....opps

but anyhow, i was surprised that it sounded really edgy and somewhat arrogant leh...kinda hit me really hard because before this, i didn't know that i sounded like that. yah..yah...josh was rite, i should really record my voice when i speak and listen to how it sounds like.

no wonder people can't stand me, and no wonder people say it's just me....no wonder, no wonder.

it seems all clear now. there seems to be no way i can make my voice friendly la...unless i go for a voice transplant or something...i don't want to admit this, but i really don't want this to bother me to much unless it bothers you...

since when have i become so insecure about myself.....really, like wanting people to accept me....explaining myself half of the time. it' kinda frustrating. but if i don't watch my words and lower that pride of mine, i'll hurt another person i care someday....and no one wants that to happen...

alas, i'm so glad for us that we finished the pw