Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

today was like a roller coaster ride...of emotions that is.

this morning was so driven to finish econs that i suddenly realised i like to do DRQ questions alot and realised why i like to stude. yes people....your spastic author of this entry loves to study.

then i really enjoyed the company of shi min, beryl, weijian, huishan (at the next table), and ritesh(at the other next table) in the morning because of their dilligence to study....so affected by it...

so later went for econs and started to talk about dogs in particular with huishan and telling her how i like golden retrievers...haha...then we were saying how puppies were so cute and then nat suddenly said ,"they young of course cute lah....grow up le kanasai lor like human beings like that"...

then with a heavy heart we went for maths and that's where everthing happened...
when ms goh was going through the assignments that i didn't know how to do. then seeing that my friends knew how to do, it made me feel kinda helpless and strangely stupid. like why didn't i think about that before?

with a depressed look in my face, beryl suddenly ask me if i'm okay anot, so that's where the tears start coming down....really, they have no idea what it meant to me lah.....

so finally...finally i broke down. all the overwhelming things....yet thinking back, there really is nothing to cry about...it's just the stress....and all the expectations of myself getting straight A's weighed me down.

is getting straight A's realistic?

some ppl argue that it is now, that i should take it one step at a time. i want to go to yale like i told mr ong today. his face told me that it's a far-fetched idea. when u haf high expectations pf urself....sometimes there r larger motives behind it.....
so now wat......

btw....i wanna hug those who helped me thru today...really....*hugz* ~nat love ya...